idk bro...

Mar. 21, 2026
I'm starting to wonder if I'm actually depressed. I come home from work and do literally nothing. I eat dinner but that's about it. I don't do my hobbies anymore. I'm not sure if it's due to just a lack of motivation though, or actual depression. How can I even tell the difference? I don't even do like “lazy” activities anymore. I can't tell you the last time I've played a video game. Basically all of my friends have moved away, and to the ones who are still here, it's very clear I'm not a priority anymore. I've never been a priority for anyone honestly.

ADHD SUCKS

Mar. 7, 2026
Hey guys it's been over a month since I've updated anything. Webdev stopped being my hyperfixation which means I totally abondoned it. That's honestly the most frustrating part of ADHD. Even when I'm making great progress on something, I have a little voice in the back of my head saying "This is going to pass. You'll move on from this and abandon it for months." Like even though I WANT to work on my website and make progress, it's genuinely impossible because my hyperfixation at the time overrides literally everything in my else to the point it might as well not even exist.
PS: I hate how the 'n' in this font looks like an 'r'

BLOG INTRODUCTION

Feb. 2, 2026
This will eventually look way better, I promise. I'm going to make it so theres a background image of lined paper, with a tear to cut off where the blog entry ends. I'm currently working on a photoshop file that allows me to create these really easily just by basically sliding something. I'm going to get the line height, margins, and font size all nice and neat so that they fit perfectly on the lines. If I'm really feeling up to it, I would like to even design my own font based on my handwriting (but then people can forge my handwriting, so maybe not...).

okay I got it working now whats up